Twins...

I just learned that my half-sister is pregnant. She is having....twins. Also, my best friend is pregnant, she is only having one that I know of.

Everyone seems to walk on egg shells around me when it comes to these issues. Even my husband was unsure how I would react and very gently asked me how I was feeling about the news.

I am very lucky that I can still experience joy on these occasions. I know that both of these women wish us nothing but the best and pray for our success.

If we are lucky enough to have a child, that would be wonderful. If we do not have a child then I pray for peace, no matter what happens I want to feel joy in our lives and the lives of our friends and family.

Faith and Courage

In case you have not noticed, I have been mostly absent from the world of blogging this cycle. I am keeping my mind busy and focusing on each day as it arrives. Well I guess that is not entirely true because nothing happens without at least a little planning. All my drugs are here, my labs are completed, my calendar is prepared, my appointments are scheduled, and last but not least...my bill is finally paid in full from the past 2 cycles (Well almost anyway, pending a couple of things that are still being disputed by the insurance company.)

I wish I could know for sure, that all this time and money has not been wasted. That the 5 remaining embryos will indeed yield a child. Infertility treatment is not for the weak. It is such an exercise in faith and courage.